I havent been here since 2012 OMG where you been bitch. Well feeling sorry for myself. Failing again being in career mode and getting chubbied up. Well just in the belly area. Its pretty much where it goes ladies and gentleman.I also inhereted a sick family member. I take care of my father now. He has vascular dementia and its no joke the other ailments he has but I am making due. He almost died this year and I never gave up. I dont get help taking care of him other than my son. I think people dont know what I go thru but nevertheless dont care and yes pretend to care when they call every 3 to 4 months. I hope they run across this blog and eat shit. I was also sick too but I will dive into that later. Well now its 2014. I said on facebook my resolutions here they are:

1. Go cheap! That means shop less.no ordering food and being lazy. I have already been putting all my fav shopping companies that email me into spam so I no longer have triggers. I have started in Dec 2013 and it has saved me a ton.

2. Career mode. I once again signed up for another semester despite me working 4 jobs taking care of my dad and homeschooling my son. I think this is my chance to get a great job and only 1 job. Be able to be a good provider and establish my life finally. Im just too old to be a hippy.

3.  Master my sewing skills. There was a black friday sale for the sewing studio in town and I think I just need something to call my own hobby time.

Those are my NY resolutions. Nothing stupid like lose weight or anything. I have set in mind to just remain healthy. I also have a small plan to hopefully get my ultimate goal in life to live overseas. I was born in Germany and lived there and miss it soo much. I dream all the time my connections and spirit  there. I will miss my friends but I think I need a new start. of course reasonings to come later. I hope I dont leave you all hanging.. sorry. this bitch was busy